There are times in my life when I know that my next steps are going to be difficult. Not because I was in danger or a loved one is hurting, but because those steps are going to lead me down a path that I am not comfortable walking.
A journey begins with a first step. My first step started three years ago when I pushed the word “publish” on my blog. My path meandered along with blogging, and I was thrilled to have a place to share my thoughts. Choosing to take some bigger steps along with much encouragement and even more pushing from friends, I accepted a gracious offer to begin writing for Choice Literacy early last year.
My journey in writing continued as I attended Choice Literacy’s Writing retreat in Hocking Hills. My first steps felt like a young child learning to walk as I entered the lodge to start our day. I wasn’t sure of expectations, and the only thing I knew was that I was going to be given a gift---wrapped in time. Several hours a day to write, reflect, and confer with an amazing group of writers.
I often wonder why I don’t always embrace opportunities like this. I always tend to lean on the frightened side. The side that almost makes me say no but then I realize that I will be in a community of writers with all similar goals. I will be in an environment that will not only nurture but also help me to understand that I am a writer. I had the chance to stop time and think about my life as a writer. That was the biggest gift of all for me in the retreat. Time to hit the pause button on life and envision myself as a writer. Brenda, Choice Literacy editor, reminded us about the importance of time as she read from The Productive Writer by Sage Cohen
“ …I can’t tell you exactly how you can make time for writing, but I assure you that you can. I can also tell you that your relationship with time is more subjective that you might imagine. The best way to get a handle on how much authority you actually have over your time is to start becoming aware of how you are spending it.”
I was reminded of so many lessons that I had lost somewhere in my busy life. Lessons that involve finally saying out loud “I am a writer.” Learning that I am in control of my time and when I choose one thing I lose something else. One of my favorite quotes from the book is “waste time well.” For me as I continue down a winding path that has opened to so many different avenues I have gratitude for the experiences and most of all I am thankful because I had the courage to take that next little step.
|This is my cue card that I chose to place next to my |
computer to help me remember the lessons learned.